wooots~!
here i am blogging again!
recently busy with assignments,
projects, SDLs, online quizzes,
TPSD friday dinner,
TMC youth outing,
TPSD institution meeting,
work, HSSSC....
hmm, its as usual lahx.

Friday dinner 2 days ago was great.
All along i was rather disappointed by the attendance.
Though friday dinner 2 days ago was worse in the attendance,
but everyone was relaxed and had fun with the TemaPoly.
and i realised that i am really fortunate.
It was lucky that my Physiological Psych tutor is a funny and lame person.
He cracked lame jokes and 欠扁问答题.
During the TemaPoly game,
me and yun hui ran out of questions.
and so, i remembered the 欠扁问答题 my tutor played with us,
and throw the questions to the members who came.
it was great fun.
the attendance was very little but because of that,
everyone had the chance to play it.
i am really happy and touched.
i really really want friday dinner to be a success.

TPSD institution meeting is back again!
this time, due to all my commitments,
i had really little time for this.
but i really want to do it well.
so i need TIME MANAGEMENT!
yep
TPSD November instituition meeting MUST be a success!

Yesterday night was TMC youth outing
i invited sin ying hui ting sarah jun rong taizheng-gor and jaf
it was quite alright except ...
apologies to sinying hui ting and sarah...
gomenasai!!
hmm...i ate quite alot.
haha...getting fat omgosh sinful!!!

my life like nothing much also arh
always same content hahaha
no inspiration to blog in chinese
and i realised my chinese really CMI already
~.~

All the best to those who are struggling and working hard!
=)

Somehow unknowingly i have accepted some facts
i guess its ok already bahx.
sometimes the difficult part is accepting
once you have accepted the fact,
everything will be better.

my life is really hectic
studies, projects and tests are coming up
soka, TPSD friday dinner TMC youth outing and TPSD instit mtg
Work, i am working once a week
HSSSC, the activities are coming up
almost everyday after school i have meeting
weekends one of them taken up by work
the other most of the time got meeting
but i am alright.

Realised how my comrades are so supportive
thank you everyone!
for being there for me =)
i have met true comrades ^^
love love~~
gakkai is a warm family, really.

and once again,
thanks sinying sarah and hui ting
for nagging at me to go for my hospital appointment
and francis for threatening me =S
hahaha.
=X

physically i am tired.
but mentally, it feels great
to strive with all my comrades
with the same goal in mind
unity!

mabel,
i know you are aiming for a 4.0
all the best k!
jia you jia you~~

today's hospital appointment is so cute
the doctor said to increase the dosage
in the end, the nurse never go write
then she told me "no medicine"
and the doctor say see him again 3 months later
the nurse say 2 months
heh was she listening? =0
anywayy, in the end i didnt get medicine hahahaha

suddenly got nothing to post le
so thats all for today!
=D

为什么
最近的心情这么沉重
能不能请你不要说话?
给我一点时间可以吗?
能不能不要管我?
我倦了
为什么我这一切的努力
换来的却是别人的不谅解?
真的很想逃避
离开这种种。
原来
要原谅一个伤害过你的人
是多么的困难。
好不容易，
我以为自己最少恢复了一点的精力
却又被别人说的话击倒。
所以，
你能不能不要管我的事?
让我休息一下，
可以吗?
就连朋友也疏远
我
是注定要面对这一切的

BLAH BLAH BLAH~~~

SCHOOL HAVE STARTED WOOHOO!!!!

heh..yep
end of holidays so fast right?
GRR
I am so lucky!
No lectures at all for my CDS haha
but i didnt get into my first choice
ahh well~ its ok
anywayy
lessons have been alright for me
just that,
as usual,
i fall asleep during lectures =X
heh not purposely de k =S

Today,
i saw him again.
Past the library,
and he past the triangular garden
so many times i see him today
I guess jaf must be feeling irritated by me already
ohh well.

Had been watch KO 3an Guo
until epi 34 alr
now waiting for the new epi to come out hahaha
HAO SHUAI ARH~!!!
its funny and sad and err all the feelings you can get
and the songs damn nice haha.

Today the first TPSD Friday Dinner have kicked off
Well, not too bad
but the attendance makes me sad
its ok.
surely it will increase!!
YES IT WILL!!!!

Phew~
so many things to do.
got a list of things to do
10 things to do...
lazy to start heh

i feel that the distance between me and my frens are getting so big
that maybe, we cant feel each other anymore.
why do i feel that i have lost them?

you are the source of happiness from all my unhappiness
please let it stay that way.

你听见了吗?
那颗为你而跳动的心跳
只想这样默默地看着你...

HOHOHOHOHO~!!!!
I CUT MY HAIR!!!
finally haha.
I never cut for half a year already.
Cant bear to cut my hair...
Well,
yep
finally cut it.
Though didnt change the hairstyle much,
but i still like it.
The hairstylist was SUPER patient.
until i almost fall asleep haha.
That salon have never let me down.
Thanks mabel for intro-ing me that salon.
Though not cheap arh...
I chose to cut my hair this month,
cause its my bday month haha
got more discount for members =X
after discount, $16 ~.~
considered cheap for the salon haha
Anywayy~~
yeah i like the feeling after the haircut.
forgot to ask for his name,
next time can 指定 him to help me cut.
but now i also dont care haha
lazy to 指定 already.
as long as cut nice can le hahaha.
i think sometime later
it'll be time to dye my hair again =X
no worries my mother dye hair very pro derh.
hahahaha

sigh.
this is weird...
object yet support?
isnt that equals to not supporting?
anywayy,
i will hold on.
it is alright...

Feeling super emo nowadays
i think i cannot stop working arh.
must have something to do then can arh...
not used to feeling so free
after such a long time of packed and hectic life.
this week feels so weird.
but anywayy,
school going to start soon!
the timetable is...............ok la
CDS made it end so late =(
monday and wed end at 7 pm!
every monday have TPSD friday dinner planning at 7.30pm
no dinner =( can save money hahahaha.

Oh yes,
i was saying,
feeling super emo recently.
well,
i think the show and songs too emo liao.
the feeling is like ....cant breathe de
serious sia.
hahaz.
music is really powerful..

this week though never work,
almost everyday got soka meeting
ya arh,
why so many =X
monday night: TPSD friday dinner main comm meeting
tuesday night: District 2 meeting for updates
wednesday night: TPSD friday dinner main comm meeting
Friday night: TPSD CIC study meeting
saturday: afternoon CIC meeting, night Youth IgNite conert
Sunday afternoon: Individual Zone discussion meeting
phew~~
it feels as if i have joined soka for a long time...
but actually,
i haven even joined for a year yet.

HSSSC...
sometimes i dont know how to face it actually.
it definately isnt easy to work in a group.
oh well~ half a year more.
after that,
i will concentrate and focus on soka already.
still, i learnt alot in HSSSC =)

THANKS MY FRENS
Mabel, KoonHiang, Jaf, and Jun Rong
for celebrating my belated bday on wednesday
heh heh
got loopholes arh mabel...
=X
still, i am happy thanks ^^
and thanks for the ang pow!
Thanks to:
KarKoon (biggest shareholder) * 大股东*
Mabel
Koon Hiang
Jaf
Jun Rong
=D
and thanks koon hiang for the prezzie heez

to think that even as a fren,
you didnt wish me a happy birthday..
whatever excuses wont work
now,
i dont even want to regard you as my fren.
but you are my comrade,
i cant change this fact.
i dont even want to remember anything already
just treat it as i dont know you.

不知为什么
最近总觉得心里被一层莫名的悲伤包围
使我好想逃避，
无力面对。
一边的我，
好想勇往直前，
努力改变这一切，
证明自己。
但
另一边的我，
只想像以前一样
过着简单空缺的生活。
因为累了吗?
因为累的时候，
也会希望能有人在身边吗?
但我知道
这一切只不过是生命开的玩笑。
当泪水在阳光下落下时，
最少
它会反射亮光。
在黑暗里，
它却只有空气作伴。
在这个辽阔的世界，
我们追求的种种，
最终，会变成什么呢?
没有希望，
就不会失望。
但没有希望，
人要怎么活下去?
一丝的希望，
也许真能改变很多事吧。

I realised,
that many ppl are facing alot of problems.
i have my own too.
but i cant only bother about mine.
i need, and want to help the others.
i dont want to be useless to their problems...

i am glad that they tell me their problems.
at least i know,
i am someone.
but thats not the point la haha
i really hope everyone can overcome their problems.
for now,
the only thing i can do,
is to be by their side,
listen to what they have to say,
and support them, encourage them.
whether they can overcome it or not,
its still up to them.
but i strongly believe in them!

sometimes i rather all their problems fall on me
this way my frens wont have to face any problems.
but thats the wrong thinking i know..
i really want them to be happy...
what should i do?